January 2010
http://twitpic.com/10ec18 - i never look up. i’m going to look up more often. never know whats on the cielin
is it wierd?
is it wierd that i think the week/weekend i am going to be home, not one of my friends will come visit me? idk i just feel ill be stuck for a week alone with my sister and her friends. i am always so paranoid, i hate it. i just think my friends dont like me enough to just sit with me a weekend im going to need them. that if they were given a chance to go to a party or hang with me, they will...
…if we sit back lamenting our fate we forget that we can influence it.
well, it is the truth that we are all flawed in some way, yet still we must do the best we can for ourselves…
we plan on smacking them down like the hand of god
http://twitpic.com/zh1nc - what up brass knuckles
alone
i always feel so god damn lonely. i can be with people and just feel so alone. even with my best friends. fuck.
everybody wants a thrill
what if you were never born? would the world be any different?
honestly made me cry
Today in downtown San Diego, I watched a blue collar Mexican man get harassed for being Mexican. It was a blatant act of discrimination. And the man actually began crying. As he left the office building, he took off his jacket. His t-shirt underneath read, “I love the USA!” MMT
sweet caroline goood times never seemed so good, i’ve been inclined to believe it never would
GOT INTO ST. ANDREWS!
why do you do this to me, you penetrate right through me.
conufsed
have you ever been so sad, soo mad, but the tiniest bit happy? so confused you didn’t know whether to cry for hours, scream (in my case at no one, just scream, cause i can’t scream at people, it makes me depressed), or cling to that little hope? i guess im just confused…
“When you’re struggling with something, look at all the people around you...”
– Dear John - Nicholas Sparks
“Here’s to the kids.The kids who would rather spend their night with a bottle of...”
– nicole escoda’s twitter. gotta love her.
scared
im more scared of everything than i use to be. i am scared of the future. of making friends. of my friends. my family. nicole going back to college. being alone. not getting into college. being behind in school. my surgeries(plural). of not being nice enough. of trusting people.
what has happened to me, i have become such a downer. i was fun at one point. i think? im scared i have become more...
oh love
Max: Where are we going?
Lucy: Out of our minds!
Jude: Where are you taking me?
Lucy: Down the rabbit holes.
Jude: I want to feed the cows!
new year
its a new year. i hope my friends have a good new year. they all really deserve it. i know they went behind my back then lied, i just feel sad cause its like they dont even know me, if they knew me at all theyd know id never get mad, i understtand, im just sad that they lied really, i wouldnt have gotten mad. but its all in the past now. its a new year and it is going to be a good year for them...
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